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Garden of Tears and Hope - Lyrics

I Decline

It's your choice if you stay. Your call if you leave me.

Obvious in theory but leaving isn't easy.

Ordinary lives. Of ordinary couples.

Wasn't made for us. We're bursting like bubbles.

But I decline. I decline. To smile

Three for three so far. Let's make it flawless.

Not another word. Your story remains hopeless.

Ordinary harm. Ordinary teardrops.

Nothing left to see here all layers are peeled off.

But I decline. I decline. I decline. To smile

Look the other way. Pretend it is nothing.

If there is nothing left. How could there be suffering?

But I decline. I decline. I decline. To smile

Sunshine Avenue

Sunshine avenue. Your issues, have issues

Nothing left to do. Nude pictures and tissues

You think you are depressed. Well this babe, is living

Smiling on request. The gift that keeps giving

You're fading in my mind, gray to black

There's nothing left for you

Don't go, don't go back

Shoreline looks so grim. You're trying to save me.

Thinking I don't swim.But I do. Maybe.

You're fading in my mind gray to black

There's nothing left for you

Don't go, don't go back

Blind Alice

She slept on the kitchen table

Crying calmly in the dark

You would love if you were able but why bother

It sure seems like a lot of work

Alice. Blind. Blind.

Full of Vicodin and merlot.

Tasting mercury and salt.

Telling all your friends that you might move to Glasgow.

And that it is their fault

Alice. Blind. Blind.

You took me for a slow walk

To the Japanese tree

You were born alone you live alone then die alone

Be lonely with me

Please be lonely with me

Alice. Blind. Blind.

The Garden of Tears and Hope

The pale tears of April.

You were immortal and so was I

Come closer, sit, listen.

One of your eyes. Is bigger than the other eye.

I don't like what I'm like, you whisper through fever.

The mud steers your steps back home the other way

The ten minutes were here and gone. I've fixed myself to them

What we have been and what we are.

In the garden of tears and hope. You tear me up again.

And I'll be nursing for more scars.

As to Peter in his Spitfire

For your fist I'm chasing you

What is ripped can be stitched back up

So sweet to be kicked down by you.

My head on the sink, you sing in the bathroom.

The soft darkness closing in for good.

The ten minutes were here and gone. I've fixed myself to them

What we have been and what we are.

In the garden of tears and hope. You tear me down again.

And I'll be nursing four more scars.

Don’t explain yourself to me. Don’t explain yourself to me. 

I don't really care what you think you are feeling.

Everything Changes

Dynamics are changing cause people are dying so what am I to you?

You think I'm maturing as I'm shrinking.

Your lips on my hand as we're watching the band with songs that never end.

Not quite as stable as you're thinking.

No longer loved by the masses. Everything changes, everything passes.

Your eyes locked on mine on the sofa.

The bodies you're reading the image you're feeding and all you see is fuel.

For your anorexia nervosa.

One hour a week reinforces the streak of not giving in to you

You can't take no notice of nothing.

You said everything's timing, are you crying or smiling? There's but one thing you can do

To know if Im leaving or bluffing

Baby am I leaving or bluffing?

Merchie

Hanging from a crane. The masses go insane, as you turn. 

Hiding from yourself. You're her and someone else. One must burn. 

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The last instinct you're struggling to control

It will swallow you whole

A cabinet of pills to cure your many ills, happy day (oh, happy days).

You torniquete your brain, for this tournament of pain. Where minds will sway. 

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The last instinct you're struggling to control

It will swallow you whole

The teenage actor laughs. Your mouth do as they ask. But you fool me not. 

Some journeys are for one. You needed to be done. And get what's got. 

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The unbearable loneliness of the soul.

The last instinct you're struggling to control

It will swallow you whole

Modern Love

The modern love

Timing tender from afar

Solid hope, feeding frenzy at the bar

Grasp through air. Words are everything to you

That ice cold stare, if not me then tell me who

The good looks and fame

What is my name?

The telephone game

(Please) tell me my name

All I need is for you to fill the hole

Hidden deed. Anything to take control

The fortune and fame

What is my name?

Bloodthirsty game

(Please) tell me my name

Modern love. Timing Tinder from afar

Where were you?

Come and tell me what we are

The fortune and fame

What is my name?

What is my name?

What is my name?

Alone

I stumble alone awake all night.

Sweating with fear the lights are so bright. 

Blood on the floor to breathe is to die.

Nothing is good. Nothing is right

Leave me alone. Don't leave me alone. Alone.

Scarred and destroyed I stare at the floor

I know what I've done. there will be more

Crucified lips i cannot speak

I lie and I bleed. To you I am a freak.

Leave me alone. Don't leave me alone. Alone

I lie here alone awake all night.

Sweating with fear the lights are screaming white

Leave me alone I'll be alright

Leave me alone. Don't leave me alone. Alone.

Hear Comes Fear

As I was giving up on society.

I couldn't hear you Kate, you cry too quietly.

No tinge of tension anymore. It's getting late and I am sore, it's getting late and I am sore.

Here comes fear, my one true friend.

What I have is what you spend.

Hand in hand with my darkest friend.

Here comes fear. Here comes fear. Fear is here.

Translucent poetry. Letters in the sand.

I dust the muslims floor on your command.

I try to think of what to feel as you are dozing at the wheel in this too small automobile

Here comes fear, my one true friend.

What I have is what you spend.

Hand in hand with my darkest friend.

Here comes fear. Here comes fear. Fear is here.

I know a thing or two about hurting you.

Oh you're trying to figure out. Who I'm talking to.

You're passing out from white bourgogne. The night was long and time is gone. The night was long and time is gone.

Here comes fear, my one true friend.

What I have is what you spend.

Hand in hand with my darkest friend.

Here comes fear. Here comes fear. Fear is here.

Safer Inside

Living my life inside. It's safer than the things we could have tried

Happier where I hide. Nothing worthwhile for me outside

There's no god to control. What I do, when I hide in my hole.

Part of me loved the light. Your absence is the heart of my flight.

Deep in thoughts no reaction

Stay away no interaction

You once made me whole. Then your face left a scar in my soul.

Minimal strength to move. You showed me, I've got everything to prove.

Far away from your reaction.

Without you life’s an abstraction

Speaker of gentle words. In the wind every sound is unheard.

Hear me as I sigh. If careful every whisper will fly

Quiet mornings no reaction

Without you love is an abstraction

Living my life inside. It's safer than the things we could have tried

Happier where I hide. Nothing worthwhile for me outside

Deep in thoughts no reaction

Stay away, no interaction. Stay away. Stay away.

Rosie

Rosie oh Rosie, I crack with every word.

Burnt cobweb and such raw chill. It hurts, oh it hurts, how it hurts.

Sleeping in seaweed. Corals on your leg. If I, if I couldn't have you. I pretend that you're dead.

I pretend that you're dead.

Deeper even deeper. Into silence into dark.

The last laugh lasts forever. It echoes in my mind and in my heart.

Rosie, sweet rotten Rosie. Drape me in worms.

As the world rages, I'm resting. Safe from despair safe from words.

Make hast come November. Make haste man in black.

The sour scent of infection. When sane is gone, sane will never come back.

Deeper even deeper. Into silence into dark.

The last laugh lasts forever. It echoes in my mind and in my heart.

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